Yes. It has finally happened. I realized that I live life a bit like that girl in that one book... (oh mommy brain, please remember...what was it? Right The Library Card by Jerry Spinelli) where she reads a book that recites her life verbatim. At one point it says something to the effect of "Then she turned on the TV."
That was the end of her book.
Can I just say that I think about that scenario and I cringe? That's me! Granted, I did just have my very first baby a few months ago. I felt justified in convalescing postpartum in front of a show on Neftlix. And really, I was. I mean, who has energy for anything other than taking care of brand new Cuddlebug? Certainly not me. So after my Bug goes down for a nap, Agents of SHIELD it is. Nursing for an hour at a time several times at night? No problem. I found The Blacklist to be quite exciting. Thank heavens for computers, by the way. Middle of the night TV programming is terrible, TV programmers. You guys really ought to do something about that.
Except now...
Bug is sleeping better through the night. I have realized that I am coming out of the haze of extreme sleep deprivation and depleted energy stores. I can't tell you how good that feels! And now that I have the energy to step out the front door, and do stuff, I don't WANT to. It's bad, Chucky. I'm an addict. I am a Doctor Who Aholic that rocks Cuddlebug to sleep and then bounds back into her bed either for a nap, or to watch another episode and eat chocolate.
The first step is to admit you have a problem.
My name is Kristi and I've come to realize that my computer has a greater gravitational pull than the earth.
So, I have turned off the current show Doc Martin. And Minecraft. And anything else that wasted my time.
The goal?
One Month. Tomorrow to February 28th. No TV shows, video games, or things of that nature. Books are okay (a decision after my hubby told me that I did need to have something I could do to "unstring the bow," as it were.)
Instead, I am going to do something every day that is a personally fulfilling pursuit. Something I have never done before preferably, but not a requirement. Some of my plans include blogging this goal (super scary, because I have never even TRIED blogging anything before), successfully completing twelve exercises in one month at Curves for the first time, finding more students for my music studio, furthering some of my writing projects, and more things as I find them.
Ultimately, I want to get more out of life: I want to enjoy my baby more. I want to look back on the things that I did during the day and sigh with deep pleasure as I soak in a bubble bath.
I have only one question to ask:
Anyone want to join me?
This all sounds good. . . Great in fact! But, what happens after February 28th? :-/ I pray you don't stop living life!
ReplyDeleteI plan to take it one month at a time. A possible re-evaluate/recommit moment will happen March 1st. After that, I may have to just start another blog. ;-)
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